Things we do for love

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THINGS WE DO FOR LOVE.

Before I start talking about my daydreams of love, I would like to repeat in here what I have already written somewhere else, which was that, in order to find a way out of my tormented love life I have started writing them, and while I have been writing these feelings of love, they seemed to me that my writings had become for me an escape from realty, all because of the strange and powerful feelings of love that I was feeling within me then.
Now I have written these happenings because they have happened to me, and they seem to me to be unique in their own way, because I am a man of advanced age.
So now while I am writing these writings, I am in the greatest dilemma of my life, with lots of pains and despair within my heart. You see I am a man of very mature age, and in a few years I will be an old man, but what has happened to me now has never happened to me before in my whole life. Because now I have fallen in love with a beautiful lady, and I am so madly in love with her that I am almost gone crazy, and I have been asking myself why this has happened to me.
Although I know now that at least part of this love madness of mine, which has hit me so hard in the later part of my life, may be due to the fact that my relationship with my wife has completely ceased to exist, I have also started to realise that there are other reasons as well, which I am willing to find out why I am so madly in love.
Therefore, I ask you to forgive me if I sound stupid, while I am writing about my unhappy love life at my age, because at my age generally it should be ridiculous to fall in love; but I have fallen in love! And I can’t help it. So if it seems to you a bit strange what I am saying, it is because I am an elderly man madly in love. But at the same time I am also in despair from the lack in my life of any woman relationship.
Therefore, please pardon me, because during my life nowadays, I have been under a great emotional distress from my tormented love life. But I am writing about these painful love feelings for a couple of reasons, one is that by writing what I am going through and what I have been through with this love emotionally, I may perhaps gain some sort of relief from my love pains, and it may help somehow my love soul. And in second place, I may use my love writings to let the lady love of my heart know how much I love her.
I want to let her know that she has been the centre of my love emotions, and how much torment and pains of love I have been through for her: And in the knowledge that she knows my love pains and just how much I love her, and what great love emotions she has raised within my heart, I may gain some peace of mind, and perhaps her love. If that’s God’s will.
But to write what’s going through my mind at the moment in a way that it makes sense, it’ going to be a very hard task for me, because I lack the skills of a writer. So, you have to pardon me if I make too many mistakes, because I have never been to school long enough to learn how to write properly. Therefore, I am not a well educated man at all, and the primary school that I went to when I was young was not an English school; so my knowledge of the English language is even lower than my normal writing skills. You see my knowledge of English is what I have learned here and there day in day out, and when in case of necessity like now I have always tried to learn a bit more.
You have to realise that never before in my life I’ve felt so inadequate, especially about my poor knowledge of the English language; because the task ahead of me is so huge, since what I want to say is so important to me. But I have to try to do my best, and say what I want to say in the clearest way possible. In order to achieve this result I may have to write my writings at least ten times over and over again, but I don’t mind doing it the hard way. Because these are the things that the force of love makes me do.
I want also to inform you, that before this task came up I didn’t even know how to type or how to use a typewriter, but the great pressure of my love emotions got the better of me, and they have pushed me to learn how to type. So now I have learned how to type only slowly but I do type. And those love emotions that don’t let me go even for a moment are making me learn more English, so now I can express better what I feel deep within me, since these feelings within me need to be expressed properly. There have been some love phrases that have taken days to formulate in my mind, and when they are emotional love phrases in a case like mine, which they are negative they are very painful to formulate. But no matter how hard and painful it will be for me, I will continue to write what I have to write, I will try to express myself clearly, and say it just the way that I happen to feel inside myself. So, help me God!
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A possible way out of my dilemmas.
Now that I am writing this post it makes me wonder, why a man has to put up with so much pressure? Why I did not try to find another way to satisfy my yearning for a woman love, or perhaps just find a hooker, and by satisfying my sex drive the love for this woman could be less demanding? Things we do for love are incredible.

Why not dream to make love to anyone?

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The torment of unwanted love

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The torment of unwanted love

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THE TORMENT OF UNWANTED LOVE

Life can sometimes be a real torment, so, I wish that I could put a stop to live my loveless life the way that I am forced to live it nowadays, and I wish so much that I would be able to start looking for a new lady love; but my present way of life, and my present duty to my supposed to be wife stops me. Therefore, although I am in love with love, I can only find love in my daydreams.
This is only happening because there is no more love life in my marriage, and I feel so deprived and hurt about it all that I have come up to a conclusion, that perhaps it is time for me to look for another wife. So because of this painful and loveless situation, I want so much to escape and I am ending up in dreamland, where I dream my daydreams of love to ease the pain.
Therefore, I happen to dwell in this painful dreamland with no one to love, because a womanly love is what’s lacking in my life: and because of it, I am stuck in my painful daydream, which in turn drives me to my painful dreamland, the place where I may freely say what’s on my mind, and say other strange things if I so wish, because what I am writing here is only a dream in dreamland and in my mind, and if it is true or false I don’t have to tell you.
In dreamland it’s easier for me to say what’s on my mind, because I can write everything as if it is a dream, and I don’t have to state whether it is a real dream or not, or whether what I write here may be real life events, or at least real feelings that I have lived through, or whether the whole thing is an invention of my mind. In fact I could even exaggerate what I am writing, so that it could sound interesting to my readers. And it also happens to be easier for me to write in dreamland, because dreams can start anywhere and up anywhere. So now that I am writing in dreamland, I can start to daydream and write my painful and loveless daydreams.

During a man life, the need for the love of a woman is very great: but lately for me that womanly love has been missing and it has started my painful loveless dream, which is like this:
There is a woman in my daydreams, which I believe that I have known her for a while, and somehow one day I have made a pass to her, but she politely rejected my pass. But I was under the impression then and I still believe now that somehow she liked the idea that I made a pass to her. But during my painful and loveless dream I have tried in vain to reach out for this woman’s love, and therefore I seem to have failed to win her love the first time. But I have fallen in love with her so much, that I cannot surrender and let her go away just like that, because the force of love that I feel in my heart for this woman is too great to let go. So, I will have to try to reach out for her again and again, no matter what may happen to me.

THE GOD OF LOVE HAS NO MERCY!

TO MY HONEY SMILE WITH LOVE

To the beautiful lady I call Honey,
That in my heart she is so dear to me,
The God of love has imposed on me,
I must love you, from now to eternity.

The God of love at work has no mercy.
Although he may exist only in my fantasy,
He enables me to look sane and not crazy,
While I express those love feelings inside me.
But just let me tell you what he did to me.
With his love poisoned arrow he struck me.
And why he didn’t strike you as well as me?
He never asked you, whether you could love me.
He just imposed on me to love you for eternity.

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Prisoner of circumstance or destiny

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I AM A PRISONER OF CIRCUMSTANCE AND DESTINY.

I believe that very few men have had such a sad marital experience, as I have had in the later part of my life. I know that it has not been like this bad all the time, because I can recall better times, that I would call just normal married life.
But now everything is so sad and painful, and there seems to be no way out for me, from the situation that I happen to be in. It is so bad that I believe nobody would put up with the sort of life that I am forced to live now; therefore, nowadays every day of my life, I can’t help to feel that I am the prisoner of my wife scared sick mind.
Being a prisoner without being in a real prison may sound ridiculous, but yet it is a real prison because one can not do what one wants to do or needs to do.
So, nowadays I am forced to live a very painful but honest life, and I don’t seem to have a chance to live it in any other way, because my wife is so sick and also so scared in her sick mind, and she believes that if I am not there with her something will happen to her. So in order to keep my family together I have to stay home and look after her all the time. And although I am the one that physically is able to go outside on my own and she is not, I am forced to stay home with her; therefore I have become a prisoner of my wife sick mind.
I know that it’s going to be hard for anyone to believe me and understand my position, because nobody seems to end up in an unreal and painful situation like mine. So I think that I must be one of the most unlucky people in the world.
In a normal relationship between husband and wife, the daily chores are usually shared equally between them, but the one that’s stronger and knows more may willingly do more than the other, and the weaker partner just follows the best way one can. In doing so they will benefit each other and they will be able to progress easily during their lives. But in my case nowadays things are very far from being normal.
To start with the first thing that comes to one’s mind in a husband and wife relationship is: What sort of relationship do they have? In my case there is no physical relationship whatsoever between us anymore, because my wife doesn’t want to have a sexual relationship at all, and therefore she has ceased to be my wife in the real sense of the word, this situation makes me very upset indeed: But I don’t know what else can I do to improve the situation.
My wife doesn’t seem to understand, that husband and wife must look after each other sexual needs, because it is the only real reason why they got married in the first place. Therefore, one should understand that marriage is the only way that one can legally fulfil one’s sexual needs. But because she has no more sexual desire herself, since she had this woman operation she does not care about me at all.
So, I am left to suffer the consequence that arise from stopping all sexual activity, which by right should be kept going in order to live a normal and healthy life.
A wife should understand that her man needs to have sex every so often according to his physical needs, otherwise he may run the risk of being very sick physically and also psychologically.
A man cannot ignore sex, because his body needs to eliminate his male hormone every so often when it becomes too high, and if he doesn’t, the male hormone would influence his behaviour and make him moody. Excessive male hormone may in extreme cases make a man very sick or even kill him, since it can change his physiological and psychological behaviour, and I definitely believe that a man can in fact even suffer a stroke from excessive hormone, therefore a man cannot ignore his sex life even if he wants to do so.
Therefore as I have said above and I continue to say it, this is the painful and even dangerous situation that I happen to be in nowadays:
I have a wife that in realty she is only my wife in name. And I can’t even mention any of my sexual needs to her, because she would become too upset about it, and therefore I have to put up with her no matter what, and this is the sort of life that I am forced to live nowadays.
But for me there is even more hard luck, because I have to look after her every day of my life because she is sick. What a boring life I am forced to live!
So, when I say that I am a prisoner of circumstance or destiny, you know what I mean.
I will try to explain what I mean: Some people may find enjoyment by getting drunk, or they may enjoy gambling and some other pastime, but you see: I don’t drink, I don’t smoke, I don’t gamble, and nowadays I can’t even go wandering about away from my house, I can’t even visit a relative or friend. Because this sick woman that’s suppose to be my wife, in her sick mind she wants to keep me beside her at home all the time, to listen to her mourning even if I die of boredom or something else. But perhaps I will really die one day slowly, not of boredom, but because I can’t exercise my heart and body enough, and my heart will stop beating when it becomes too weak for lack of exercise. So I would like very much to do some useful work, because by nature I am a doer and I hate being lazy. But I am not even allowed to do that!
There are times when I can’t help thinking that she is behaving like this just because she wants to punish me; she wants to punish me because I took her away from the easy lifestyle, which she used to live as a single girl before she got married to me.
She got married when she was 31 years old, and before that she never had a real job, because there was no work to do over there. So, for many years she used to stroll around town with her friends, and enjoying her life doing almost nothing, except chattering and enjoying herself with her friends. Therefore when she got married, the married life brought a big change to her lifestyle, and this change of lifestyle became even greater when we came to Australia, this is due to the way of life in Brisbane, because it is very different from that of a small town in Italy. So from the very start she never liked to live here, and she has always complained about being here, and she blames me for bringing her here even now.
But, because for me it was easier to get a job here, we had to stay put here.
Therefore now in order to revenge herself she makes my life miserable; and I have reasons to believe that probably that’s the reason, why nowadays I am not allowed any sort of enjoyment outside my own home. The only thing that I may be allowed to do sometime, that is if my wife gives me the chance and lets me go out, then and only then I can go to do some useful work at our rental properties.
Perhaps what I have just said sounds unreal and to harsh for you readers to believe it, but this is how my life is like nowadays. I know that she behaves like this; either because she wants to revenge herself, or because she is sick in her body and in her mind, and therefore she is really scared to stay home alone.
It is a great pity because here in Australia, one can enjoy life if one tries to enjoy it. Like when I was younger before I got married, at that time I used to go out once or twice a week, and most times I went to a public ballroom to dance at least once a week. Then going dancing was the fashion of the times, and I enjoyed it very much too. I used to dance a lot with all these beautiful girls, and try as I could to become friendly with them, but I had very little luck with these young girls, and I believe that in was because I didn’t speak English well enough, or was it because I was just plain unlucky with girls.
Since I could not befriend girls over here, and I was growing tired of being lonely, one day I felt that it was time for me to get married. So, I decided to go back to Italy my country of origin, to visit my family and at the same time try to find a wife over there if I could. And there I met my present wife and got married. I took her with me to Australia, but when she came here she didn’t like it much as I have said, but I hoped that if she lived here long enough, she would get to like it one day, but she never did.
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