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In search of inner peace
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In search of inner peace
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In search of inner peace
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I am saying that from there on I have been in search of inner peace, which is after we had this trip to Italy, because when we came back to Australia things between me and Giovanna were not the same any more. And from that time onward Giovanna has never been happy to live here in Australia, because she started believing then that if she had gone back to Italy, it would have been better for her.
Since then, I have wished and thought that she would forget about Italy, and she would make an effort to live here in Australia in a peaceful environment; but it was not to be, because later on everything started to turn even worse. And to cut a long story short, since then my family unit has become like a two horse carriage, with one horse pulling all the weight and the other horse pulling nothing at all. Also in my case things went from bad to worse, because in my case not only I had to pull all the weight, but my partner the lazy horse would bite and kick me when I wanted to do something useful, I think she did that to make me change my mind, and decide to go back to Italy: but that could not be, because I believe that for me it would have been a real disaster if I went back. So, as life went on and time passed by things progressively became worse for us, and my wife became sick with arthritis and also with depression. We went to see many doctors, and they have done everything possible for her to get her better; but it has not helped much. Now the worst part here is that my wife blames me for everything that has happened to her, therefore she thinks that it is my entire fault. I now that it is her depression that makes her think and behave like that, and she can’t help herself about that belief, so I think that my in-laws have really done a lot of harm to me and to their daughter, but anyhow that is past now and there is no way one can change anything.
So, I am in search of my inner peace since then. Now about my sick wife, knowing that she is sick and depressed does not help me, because I believe that I deserve better than the way she is treating me; and about her depression she is depressed because she has never really cared about me. So I would say that: After all what I have done for my wife, she has never really loved me, because if she had loved me, she would have found the meaning of life itself, and she would have found the way of how to live a better life here with me. Therefore I believe, that because she thinks only about her own self, and then she cannot have the way of life that she would have liked to have she is depressed.
This story that I have written above is only a short story of my life, which shows that it leaves me in a family unit that is very sick, and I believe that perhaps it is going to break up soon. So I am emotionally very distressed and it makes my life miserable. All these distresses and emotions make me feel strange at times, so much so that I would like to leave my wife and find somebody else, since she doesn’t allow me to make love to her, because I don’t mean anything to her and she does not seem to have any sexual desires even with another man I guess. She is cold as cold as frost? So I feel that I am in a deserted land, especially when I think about love.
In my next post I will be talking about this deserted love land.
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Man Dreamland
In search of inner peace
IS GOING TO BE CONTINUED;
Next time with, deserted love land.
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http://mystartingblogpage.blogspot.com/
I am saying that from there on I have been in search of inner peace, which is after we had this trip to Italy, because when we came back to Australia things between me and Giovanna were not the same any more. And from that time onward Giovanna has never been happy to live here in Australia, because she started believing then that if she had gone back to Italy, it would have been better for her.
Since then, I have wished and thought that she would forget about Italy, and she would make an effort to live here in Australia in a peaceful environment; but it was not to be, because later on everything started to turn even worse. And to cut a long story short, since then my family unit has become like a two horse carriage, with one horse pulling all the weight and the other horse pulling nothing at all. Also in my case things went from bad to worse, because in my case not only I had to pull all the weight, but my partner the lazy horse would bite and kick me when I wanted to do something useful, I think she did that to make me change my mind, and decide to go back to Italy: but that could not be, because I believe that for me it would have been a real disaster if I went back. So, as life went on and time passed by things progressively became worse for us, and my wife became sick with arthritis and also with depression. We went to see many doctors, and they have done everything possible for her to get her better; but it has not helped much. Now the worst part here is that my wife blames me for everything that has happened to her, therefore she thinks that it is my entire fault. I now that it is her depression that makes her think and behave like that, and she can’t help herself about that belief, so I think that my in-laws have really done a lot of harm to me and to their daughter, but anyhow that is past now and there is no way one can change anything.
So, I am in search of my inner peace since then. Now about my sick wife, knowing that she is sick and depressed does not help me, because I believe that I deserve better than the way she is treating me; and about her depression she is depressed because she has never really cared about me. So I would say that: After all what I have done for my wife, she has never really loved me, because if she had loved me, she would have found the meaning of life itself, and she would have found the way of how to live a better life here with me. Therefore I believe, that because she thinks only about her own self, and then she cannot have the way of life that she would have liked to have she is depressed.
This story that I have written above is only a short story of my life, which shows that it leaves me in a family unit that is very sick, and I believe that perhaps it is going to break up soon. So I am emotionally very distressed and it makes my life miserable. All these distresses and emotions make me feel strange at times, so much so that I would like to leave my wife and find somebody else, since she doesn’t allow me to make love to her, because I don’t mean anything to her and she does not seem to have any sexual desires even with another man I guess. She is cold as cold as frost? So I feel that I am in a deserted land, especially when I think about love.
In my next post I will be talking about this deserted love land.
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Man Dreamland
In search of inner peace
IS GOING TO BE CONTINUED;
Next time with, deserted love land.
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http://mystartingblogpage.blogspot.com/
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